Put it to Rest

What a conundram spiritual rest is. On one hand, we have this need to rest in God, to just let go of all that tension and striving and put ourselves at God's mercy. And then we have this constant battle against the flesh and that pressure to go out and preach the Gospel and get lost souls into the Kingdom. And what adds to the pressure even more is when you fall into sin and carry the burden of conviction and the extra fight of making up lost ground. It's at times of weariness like that where you just want to let go and fall into God's arms, but the fight doesn't stop, because fresh temptation awaits you. Truth is, the more you engage in the fight, the more realise you can't do it. The fight just cannot be won, because the rule of sin wins when we fight alone. We've lost the battle before we are born and it has taken a proud man like me a long time to learn. There is only one place of constant sustenance and consistency, and that's in God. Even an excessive focus on the method of staying in God's presence can rob us of the very joy of being in His presence. Letting go is an act of trust and act of acknowledgment both of our limitations and of his unlimited provision.